Missing You Deeply

However, when this memory returned to her mind, she could no longer empathize with it, because most of her feelings still remained in the present.

Ever since she had woken up from her surgery, PEI Munian’s company, care, and love had made her hate gradually fade and disappear.

“I don’t hate him.”

She could still remember that during her surgery, she had closed her eyes and lost consciousness. The person she missed was still PEI Munian. That was because she could not lie to herself. From the beginning to the end, she hated him and loved him more.

Yu Jia heaved a sigh of relief. it’s good that you don’t hate her. It’s so hard to hate someone, not to mention that you have to hate the person you love deeply. Wanwan, it’s great that you can let go of the past.

Su Wanwan smiled, but the smile couldn’t reach her eyes. She was silent for a while and looked up at Yu Jia, saying, ” “Yu Jia, I ... I have to ask you for another favor.”

Yu Jia patted his chest and said without hesitation, ” Wanwan, with our friendship, I can give you a hundred. Tell me, what do you need my help with? ”

Su Wanwan bit her lower lip lightly, her hands unconsciously clenched. She took a light breath and said, ” help me get an abortion sheet.

“......?”

Yu Jia stumbled and almost fell. w-what? ”

After Yu Jia steadied herself with the bed, she couldn’t help but say, ” “Not Wanwan, didn’t you say that you don’t hate PEI Munian anymore? W-why do you want to open the abortion papers? Y-you don’t have a child here, Yingluo.”

Yu Jia, don’t ask me why. Please do me a favor.

“Wanwan, Wanwan, Wanwan.”

Even if Yu Jia didn’t know her intentions, she knew that it was definitely not a good thing for her to get a abortion. She persuaded her, ” Wanwan, if you don’t have a child, you can just tell PEI Munian directly. Why did you have to get a abortion? are you trying to lie to PEI Munian and take revenge on him for aborting your child? ” Please don’t do that. Revenge breeds revenge, when will it end?”

“It’s not like this, Yingluo.”

Su Wanwan lowered her eyes and the light in her eyes became more and more obscure.

During this period of time, she was happy that PEI Munian had been by her side. The joy was enough to wash away the hatred she had for him. If she had not thought about the past, she could have continued to stay by his side in a daze, not caring about love or hate. However, Hanhan remembered everything. She remembered that he had never loved her. She remembered the awkwardness between him and Xi Zhiwei and the child that he had aborted.

Perhaps she could not hate him, but she could not love him either.

PEI Munian did not love her but stayed by her side out of guilt. She would rather let the person he truly loved suffer and let him and Xi Zhiwei’s child, Yueyue, suffer. This was not what she wanted.

No matter how lowly she was, she didn’t want to be the third party in someone else’s love.

She did not need PEI Munian to feel guilty. That would make her look too ridiculous.

This ridiculous child was the best warning for her. After going around in circles, what she shouldn’t have wouldn’t really belong to her. She had once wanted to hold on to something that didn’t belong to her, but didn’t it end in tragedy?

Su Wanwan sniffed, suppressed the strong sourness, and tried to curve her lips into a smile. Yu Jia, I didn’t want to take revenge on PEI Munian. I just wanted to give him a reason to let go.